I tried to make myself focus Dair's Window, was swallowed up in Adam's pornographic past and how it escalated into bondage and faux rape. I tried to shift focus to cleaning up my apartment, Ibut stood still in the middle of the room wondering what to do first, and how to do it...and half an hour later, I was still wondering.
I went online and saw the filth being pushed around in social media, excusing all of the MAGAt Cult's evil and cruelty while claiming to be the best of the best, and the blacks intensified around me. Blood pressure went up and hopelessness nudged at my being.
But.,...and this is a big but...I finally could not help but accept that Adam has taken over the story. It's called Dair's Window, not Adam's. And even if it is him telling the story...it's Dair's life as the basis. What happened to Adam prior to meeting Dair is not the focus...while it was becoming so. No wonder I was having issues.
Adam uses people, not because he wants to but because it's the only way he knows how to survive. For him to be able to do that, he needs to present an enticing appearance. Beautiful man. Someone you want to know. Have sex with. It's only as you get to know him that you come to see how calculating he is...
Until...thanks to Dair's love and understanding he breaks out of his artificial control and becomes human. Becomes happy. In my head...the dance would be like two shadows circling each other, melding as they grow more and more as one.
Meaning a page one rewrite...
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