Dammit...

"5 Dates" didn't win the Suzanne's Prize at Screenwriting Expo. It just reached semifinalist, and I'm bummed. Yeah, it's great for the script to have gotten that far -- but it deserved to at LEAST hit finalist; after that, it's a coin-toss as to who wins.

Funny, but this is a totally different attitude from how RDP's placed. With that script, I wrote it as a compromise, and I've treated it as one ever since. I've done that with a couple of other scripts, as well. I guess I still have a two-tiered attitude towards my writing -- some of it's deserving of recognition while the rest surprises me at how well it's done. Makes me feel guilty at how I keep lowered expectations for certain scripts while others are expected to kick ass...even as I believe ALL of my writing is of a higher caliber than most.

I dunno...maybe I ought to end this nonsense of writing scripts my way and write a couple of Syd Field pieces of crap just to get my foot in the door. Problem is, I've tried doing that and I wind up caring about my characters too much to limit them to that A-B-C stupidity. Thank God I never had kids; they'd be spoiled rotten.