Oh...and I made some notes for APoS. Brendan's father told a story to a university student, before he died. A legend about the Dagda and Grianan an Aileach that led to harpies living in the caves of the Cliffs of Moher. The student recorded it on tape, and Brendan learns about it when he returns to Derry so goes to listen to it. And is shredded. It connects with other information he's pulled together and he finally sees the man was damaged, just like him. Only he's spent his life hating the man and now has no idea what to think or do.
Saturday, June 4, 2022
Crash and burn
Oh...and I made some notes for APoS. Brendan's father told a story to a university student, before he died. A legend about the Dagda and Grianan an Aileach that led to harpies living in the caves of the Cliffs of Moher. The student recorded it on tape, and Brendan learns about it when he returns to Derry so goes to listen to it. And is shredded. It connects with other information he's pulled together and he finally sees the man was damaged, just like him. Only he's spent his life hating the man and now has no idea what to think or do.
Thursday, June 2, 2022
Why?
To be honest, the book does read more like a novelized screenplay, that's how fast it moves and how minimal the details were. But it was sufficient enough to catch people's emotions. It's my most reviewed book, on Goodreads, and most of them are along the lines of --
This book really gets under your skin. You can't help but feel for Curt, for all he's been through in his life that's made him into the person he is. Truly amazing, though really sad! EM
Of course, I also got some truly vicious reviews, but that was to be expected. Even the original publisher was uncomfortable with the title and one group refused to publish it because of the violence at the end. But it's been my best-seller. Still is. And so far, it's been the easiest to write.
Wednesday, June 1, 2022
The usual bullshit...
Something that is building in this book is how Leon is part of a superior breed of vampire known as the Blood Angel. The whole trope about garlic and sunlight and holy water doesn't apply to them. They don't even have to be invited into a home in order to enter, not like Prior Pious, does. But it's just one bloodline, and only if they are turned does it take them over.
Pious is the one who turned Leon's sister, Gabrielle, not realizing what she was. He regrets it and warns his monks against doing the same with any others in Leon's family, to be safe. Only things go wrong, of course, and now Pious wants to contain the damage. Of course it's too late...which may mean killing Leon's brother and other sister.
Now, I already have most of Gabrielle's story in screenplay format, and I'm debating how much of it to include in Leonides. She's caught up in getting a troubled young Jazz musician to agree to become a vampire with her, even as the lad's stepmother fights her using Santeria. Takes place in the aftermath of Katrina, for the most part.
Leon is gay. Never even wanted to be with a woman, and I'm debating having him make Pious into one of his boys. The man was 30 when turned while Leon was twenty-three, but its the status that counts. And there will be about a thousand years to play with, as well as a completely different makeup from Gabrielle. Maybe even a bit of a contest over the same guy. We'll see.
I got Seamus O'Reilly's autobiography Did Ye Year Mammy Died so will be reading that on top of Eamonn McCann's books. Both show the sarcastic, brutal humor of the Derry people, a flavor I need to catch in Brendan's telling of his story. That is really going to be fun to write.
BTW, I can never have any character in APoS refer to their mother as mammy, not as an American writer. Its connotations are just not good.
Tuesday, May 31, 2022
I hate technology...
I found out, today, that sometime in mid-August GoDaddy is changing the platform for my website, and I will have to re-input everything. Won't have a choice. That's fourteen titles, some with multiple covers and at least 3 links for each one. Onto a system I have no idea how to use. At least they were kind enough to send me links to tutorials to help me.
Motherfuckers.
Now on top of working on APoS and Leonides, I need to learn how to deal with their new site, which won't be available to even practice on, till then. I don't even know if my site address will remain the same. Everything I do until then may wind up being worthless.
I went out and bought a package of cookies, and not the computer kind; Oreo Thins. I've gotten to where I don't like lots of the icing but do love the cookie part. Two pints of Ben & Jerry's non-dairy ice cream, too. The one with Colin Kaepernick on it.
I also got the ingredients to make myself a Hoagie. I've wanted on for a while and can't find a place that offers a decent one, in this town. So...Hoagie roll, beef bologna (the regular packaged kind has chicken in it), cheese slices, lettuce, tomato, onion, mustard, mayo...and the only ingredient that wasn't quite right -- Italian dressing that was creamy, not normal. I already had that at home. Salt and pepper and it was killer.
I did more work on Leonides, earlier today. I now have close to 13,000 words, and he's just become a vampire. Prior Pious, the one who turned him, is explaining the whys and wherefores of his new world. The man was going to kill him and bury him as fodder for the pear trees, but something went wrong...he doesn't know what, yet...and he had to change his plans. Even though he didn't want to. He's the one who turned Leon's sister, Gabrielle, and he fears having two powerful vampires of the Blood Angel line out in the world.Un-death is so awkward...
Monday, May 30, 2022
Thoughts and irritants...
Sunday, May 29, 2022
The rest of chapter one...
I actually got 38 pages worked up on this first rough draft, so here's the last part of Chapter One of Leonides. FYI...this is not suitable for work or those of delicate sensibility...
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It is true that on many occasions I had heard voices drifting through the woods, indistinct but seeming to be happy, and had often tried to find where they came from. But the moment I drew close to their source, they would vanish, like fairies in the evening mist. And I would not have been surprised to find they were.But finally, near the end of my seventeenth summer, I was seated at the base of a tree near one of the ponds at a time when shade crossed all of the glen. I had finished bringing down another tree with the intention of building yet another table and couple pairs of clogs, so was having a late meal of cheese and bread, with some ale in a skin. I was near a pond surrounded by thick ferns and on a bed of ivy, where I need not think of anything or dream of anything. And it was there I saw them appear, across the pond.
Six of them, all in their robes with their hoods back, revealing their unshaved heads. Chuckling in whispers, jostling each other like the best of friends.
I froze, for I had not heard them approach, and remained as still as I could. I noticed all were but a few years older than myself, and all were remarkably handsome. Each in his own way. Two had the same hair as I, perhaps lighter in shade, but one's face carried the nonstop appearance of laughter, with a pert nose and dancing eyes, while the other had a longer face, nose like royalty and eyes almost sad. The other four were varying shades of the earth or bark on the trees, with faces that were of a slightly darker tone and ranged from round and joyous to sharply-angled and hard, even when smiling.
Then they yanked off their robes to reveal they wore nothing underneath, not even loincloths, and their bodies were all taut and strong and well-formed in ways I found breathtaking.
I will note, by this age I had figured out I was not destined to be wed and bring my parents grandchildren. Running with my male friends, casting sticks, pretending battle with them, wrestling in the glens, splashing about in the streams and ponds, unclothed, these had been my preferred enjoyments. Far more fulfilling than jostling any of the maids of our village, much to the consternation of many, who thought me...well...odd. And looking at these six men convinced me I would, first of all, not change and second of all, there was nothing odd about that. Not to me.
They were not exactly alike, merely close in the sense of them all being young and in top form. The first one with yellow hair was built like he could be my brother, right to the point where he had golden down on his chest and belly and legs. The other one was taller, smoother, had broad shoulders, trim hips and legs that sloped in a smooth line down to elegant feet. The darker ones ranged from round and full...not portly, not fat, not sloppy, but well-proportioned, with little extra weight, who was also laid over with smooth featherings of hair that was almost combed into perfection...to one built solid and powerful, like a knight should be, and almost hairless. The other two's looks fell in between, also devoid of any fat or un-shapeliness, but in fine proportion, and both with sufficient hair to accentuate their form.
As for what was between their legs, those lances ranged from nicely-sized to oh, my God, I am jealous of not only that but their buttocks being so well-shaped and...and...
Oh, hold on, now. I'm growing lost in what I have to tell while trying to remember the names of things from back then.
Which is silly.
From this point on, I will use only modern jargon for what I saw. It makes for ease in telling the story and is so much better in its descriptive abilities. I had forgotten how coy we used to be with references to genitals.
So...two blonds and four brunets, all gorgeous, looking like something out of a modern pornography shoot, with amazing bodies and dicks. Though I had no idea what a porno shoot was, way back then.
I swear.
They all splashed into the pond, dipping under the surface and diving about and grabbing each other in ways I had only seen married couples do. Water whipped from their hair and trailed down their fine forms in ways that were far too erotic for my understanding, washing away any vestige of dirt and grime from their labors, helping their skin gleam in ways almost inhuman. They remained in the shadowy area of the pond, so it was not the sun adding to their bright and startling wholesomeness. And there was nothing female around to cause the expansion of their dicks...which grew larger than I had thought possible. And harder.
Then the smooth blond stood waist deep in the water and kissed the almost hairless brunette one, having to bend over since he was close to half a head taller. Then another of the brown-haired ones slipped up from behind to slide his hands around his belly. The smooth blond stretched up, raising his arms to the heavens, water trailing from them and down them, as the one behind him slipped his hands up to pinch at his nipples, causing him to squirm and gasp for joy.
Suddenly, the blond's legs were up and resting on the shoulders of the one he had kissed, bringing all but his ass out of the water, letting his dick flop back in all its beauty and readiness...and that brunet had dipped down to...to...
He had wrapped the blond's dick in his mouth and was pulling on it with his lips as the blond stretched, even more, raising his perfect ass from within the water and bending his head back enough to where he could kiss the one behind him...and he wrapped his arms around the brown-haired one's head as the man cupped his ass and kneaded his cheeks and...and...
Oh, how I felt so much more than a stirring in my own crotch. I was nearly breathless with wonder and anticipation from the exquisite picture they made...and longing.
I wanted to be that blond.
The other blond, who was sturdy, seemed to enjoy wrestling with the two brown-haired ones as much as I had with my friends, until he broke away from them to swim backwards, face up, his dick fat and hard as water swirled around it and his powerful legs kicked and he called, "First one to catch me, gets me..."
They both splashed after him, but with none of his grace.
Then I heard the first blond groan and looked over in time to see the one sucking on his dick had pulled back...and he was spurting his cum into the air, all but yelling, as the second one mauled his ass and showed his own dick was ready to be treated in the same way and...and...
I scrambled to my feet, in shock.
They all jolted and looked at me, stunned, and suddenly, they were gone. As if they had never been there. Almost like I had been dreaming.
Except...
The water was stirred and washing across the pond to rush up on its banks. Something had disturbed it.
Still...I said nothing to anyone about them. To be honest, I was not absolutely certain I hadn't fallen asleep and dreamed it, it was so joyous to behold.
Oh, but how I wish I'd been part of it.
Saturday, May 28, 2022
Leonides...first pass at a first chapter...
Got going on it, yesterday, and kept at it till after midnight. This is the first pass on the first 7 pages:
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You know, even before I became a vampire, I did not like priests. Pastors. Paters. Friars. And most especially, Prior Pissant...excuse me, Prior Pious. Always skulking about, when I was a child, begging for money to sink into expanding his small monastery into a house of worship that would reach to the heavens, even as people starved around him.Well, not around him, per se; my village was closest to his joint, and it was not of a mind to allow such a thing. We had enough to go around and, unlike the church and so many other monasteries and such, we did not hoard it. That was thanks to my father and mother, both of whom were revered for having been part of the Norman conquest of England and built this village from nothing.
For Normans only, of course. No Saxons allowed. One can't be too absolute about treating humanity with decency and respect, despite what Jesus intended. I was long of the mind this was a fine way to do things; I have since removed such nonsense from my trains of thought.
Prior Pious was a Pater, then, but of the right bloodline, from what all could tell. Perhaps a third cousin to Bishop Odo, who held plenty of power in this provence of England. So the previous prior was replaced...and I know this is alliteration, but it is my story so be quiet. I will tell it as I choose.
Anyway...Pater Pious, soon to be Prior, was of the type who liked to pounce on anything female he happened to spy...with rumors that also included more than a few males. Very Catholic in his tastes. Of course, that meant women popping out brats, left and right, that he didn't want to deal with. So once positioned as Prior, he proceeded to place the pathetic few who survived past puberty to other Priests, Priors, Paters and Princes, be they boy or girl, and were never heard from, again. Not that anyone cared; as often as not the mother had died giving birth, and the survivors were so shamed by their situation they had also disappeared. A sort of brutal form of population control, but effective.
Then suddenly the birthing of bastards stopped. Completely. Pater Pious was now Prior, and this is when gossip began about his preference for young men as partners in his bed. Given credence by him now having several youthful monks placed under him...in every meaning of the term, most likely. It did not help that they were never seen in the village, not even during market day. They were barely glimpsed while tending the fields around the monastery, dressed in their robes, even on the warmest of days, their hoods covering their heads as if they were hiding. As it turned out, they were.
Now I mention all of this, despite it being my story, because it was important and, at this time, I was not.
Yet.
Yes, my father was burgher of the village and dealt with the king's men, whenever they deigned make an appearance. And my mother was much-respected for her assistance with King William's canteen during the Battle of Hastings, making certain the troops were fed, watered and cared for at the same level as the horses which, if you know anything about the Middle ages were far more important than a mere lance-man or even an archer. That many of those who settled our land had a story about her making certain their son or father or husband or brother was fed or cared for made her reputation inviolable.
Adding to this, both of my sisters were working on a tapestry for Bishop Odo that was to commemorate the victory at Hastings, and was considered to be of oh-so-very-great importance, while my older brother was in the king's court, though in what capacity I never really did know. They didn't talk to me, nor I them...mainly because I did not know how to contact them, and they never came home. Just letters sent by courier that were read by father.
Very classy.
All three took their appearance more from him, dark of hair and eyes the color of the sky. Also trim and well-formed, like he, so they were considered quite attractive by everyone who had known them. I, however, favored our mother, whose hair was once the color of straw, whose eyes mimicked the color of grass, and who was sturdy and strong. I also wound up taller than most men, able to look any horse in the eye, and well-formed with solid muscle and sturdy legs, weighing just over twelve stone. Like hers, my face was sculpted with a clean chin, fine cheekbones, strong nose in good proportion to my head, and lips a bit on the pouting side, giving me either a sad or a scowling expression, according to those who have been brave enough to mention it. I had more hair than she on my body, though not by much, and people constantly referred to me as cute. Never handsome like my father and siblings. Never attractive. Just adorable. Like a kitten.
People can be so ridiculous.
Of course, my family being well-connected, well-thought-of and well-monied, for the time, and as I was birthed close to the end of when my mother would bring new babies into the world, I was positioned in the category of afterthought. The important roles in the family had already been taken. So I was not even worthy of learning to read and write, my destiny being to learn my father's trade as carpenter. Which I did not mind. I enjoyed working with wood and took great pleasure at building a stool, and later a table. I needed neither words nor numbers for that.
It's hard to believe I was once so simple and easy to please.
What's even better about being an afterthought is, I was also allowed a great deal of freedom and quickly made the nearby forest my second home. The trees were of solid girth and thick as they wandered up and over hilltops, between which ran a fast brook of clear cold water that filled ponds made by the neatly-constructed dams of beavers. Ferns and ivy covered the few glens, and creatures of every kind lived there. If any of my friends wished to find me, once my chores and work were done, they knew to seek me there.
And it was there I learned all of the young monks with Prior Pious, without question, were male.
Quite by accident. I swear.
It is true that on many occasions I had heard voices drifting through the woods, indistinct but seeming to be happy, and had often tried to find where they came from. But the moment I drew close to their source, they would vanish, like fairies in the evening mist. And I would not have been surprised to find they were.
But finally, near the end of my seventeenth summer, I was seated at the base of a tree near one of the ponds at a time when shade crossed all of the glen. I had finished bringing down another tree with the intention of building yet another table and couple pairs of clogs, so was having a late meal of cheese and bread, with some ale in a skin. I was near a pond surrounded by thick ferns and on a bed of ivy, where I need not think of anything or dream of anything. And it was there I saw them appear, across the pond.
Six of them, all in their robes with their hoods back, revealing their unshaved heads. Chuckling in whispers, jostling each other like the best of friends.
I froze, for I had not heard them approach, and remained as still as I could. I noticed all were but a few years older than myself, and all were remarkably handsome. Each in his own way. Two had the same hair as I, perhaps lighter in shade, but one's face carried the nonstop appearance of laughter, with a pert nose and dancing eyes, while the other had a longer face, nose like royalty and eyes almost sad. The other four were varying shades of the earth or bark on the trees, with faces that were of a slightly darker tone and ranged from round and joyous to sharply-angled and hard, even when smiling.
Then they yanked off their robes to reveal they wore nothing underneath, not even loincloths, and their bodies were all taut and strong and well-formed in ways I found breathtaking.
I will note, by this age I had figured out I was not destined to be wed and bring my parents grandchildren. Running with my male friends, casting sticks, pretending battle with them, wrestling in the glens, splashing about in the streams and ponds, unclothed, these had been my preferred enjoyments. Far more fulfilling than jostling any of the maids of our village, much to the consternation of many, who thought me...well...odd. And looking at these six men convinced me I would, first of all, not change and second of all, there was nothing odd about that. Not to me.
They were not exactly alike, merely close in the sense of them all being young and in top form. The first one with yellow hair was built like he could be my brother, right to the point where he had golden down on his chest and belly and legs. The other one was taller, smoother, had broad shoulders, trim hips and legs that sloped in a smooth line down to elegant feet. The darker ones ranged from round and full...not portly, not fat, not sloppy, but well-proportioned, with little extra weight, who was also laid over with smooth featherings of hair that was almost combed into perfection...to one built solid and powerful, like a knight should be, and almost hairless. The other two ranged in between, also devoid of any fat or un-shapeliness, but in fine proportion, and both with sufficient hair to accentuate their form.
As for what was between their legs, those lances ranged from nicely-sized to oh, my God, I am jealous of not only that but their buttocks being so well-shaped and...and...
Oh, hold on, now. I'm growing lost in what I have to tell while trying to remember the names of things from back then.
Which is silly.
From this point on, I will use only modern jargon for what I saw. It makes for ease in telling the story and is so much better in its descriptive abilities. I had forgotten how coy we used to be with references to genitals.
So...two blonds and four brunets, all gorgeous, looking like something out of a modern pornography shoot. Though I had no idea what that was, way back then.
I swear.
Thursday, May 26, 2022
Here we go...
Wednesday, May 25, 2022
My brain hates me...
Got all my paperwork and IRS crap done, today, and then made enchiladas, rice and beans for dinner. Also got some very nice feedback on my writing. Feeling very self-satisfied. For a moment.
Then...as I'm about to shift my focus to APoS and the foot-deep stack of papers and info on my table to read through, what should come knocking at my door but a new MM storyline? About a vampire. Who's gay. Named Leonides Heroleon. And is brother to Gabrielle Bayeux, the vampiress in my screenplay, Blood Angel. He also looks like Derrick Davenport, being of a strong Anglo-Saxon/Germanic background.Both of them were turned in the 11th Century by the same vampire. Both have the smarts to not only survive in a world that hates and fears them but also build great wealth. And they pretty much hate each other. She blames him for taking a potential mate from her by revealing he preferred men. He's always considered her a snotty brat who insisted on being the center of attention. And both have been looking for love in all the wrong places.
This is only the first germ of the story...though as noted, I do have a full screenplay written for Gabrielle's part in it...but it was not expected. In fact, it kind of ticks me off. I just got done with CK and the turmoil of writing that. I want to focus on APoS...but Leonides is tickling all the right feels, the little shit.
He knows I've always had a thing for Derrick Davenport, even though he's pretty much the opposite of the kind of guys I like -- AKA: Chris Evans. If I had the two of them side by side and could take either one to my bed, I'd go nuts trying to choose. I can't explain it; it's just me being me.
To add to my psychosis, I really do wonder if I actually was a vampire in a former death and this is just me wanting to tell my story. Does that sound nuts enough, yet?
Tuesday, May 24, 2022
Back to the grind...
Did some more reading and taking notes on APoS as well as working up an ad for Instagram, with a similar one for Twitter and Facebook. The only difference between them is I removed the line at the bottom about the link being in my bio; Instagram is difficult when it comes to embedding links to outside sites on your feed images.
This is quick and dirty but efficient. It's posted on Facebook and Instagram, but as I was about to add it to Twitter, word came in bout the school shooting in Uvalde, and that took some of my focus. Eighteen elementary school kids and three adults, as of now, thanks to the NRA helping sow death and chaos in the US.I've been doing a lot of political commentary on Twitter, regarding Roe v. Wade and Ukraine and the hatefulness of Republicans, so held off with the ad. I posted demands for some form of gun control -- like background checks and prevention of people with mental health issues and a history of violence from being allowed access to guns. It didn't seem right to throw in my self-promotion, too, so I'll post the ad in the next day or two.
I also used my old MacMini to open some documents I couldn't get into on my MacBook Pro. A lot of photos of the Bogside during the Troubles, most shot by Eamon Melaugh. Copies of background information on the region, regarding policing and housing and employment an d the like. Also some early drafts of moments in the story. It's interesting to see how it's developed since 2009...like when Brendan was crossing the Foyle from the Waterside, after curfew, and gets accosted by British troops. In the first draft, it reads a bit cute; in the current one, it's far more dangerous...more threatening. The outcome is the same, but the intensity is ratcheted up.
I need to do some running around, tomorrow, including bringing some boxes back from storage because I need paperwork that's there. Irritating, but the IRS makes demands and one must follow or go to jail.










